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“Why is it always like this?” Talia asked herself as she flipped through channels on tv. Once again she was in the house on a Friday night.

“It ain’t like I don’t know nobody” 

Talking to herself was the last thing she wanted to be doing tonight. Everyone she called was either too busy to answer , or so busy that when they did answer they hung up before she could get a sentence out. All her little boy toys were somewhere with their other “main” chicks, while she was holed up in her room with yesterdays t-shirt on.

“ I am not gonna be bored tonight.  I’m going out if my life depends on it”

With that said she went to her closet to pick out something to wear for going out. She didn’t want to go to a club by herself and was against the bar scene, so she decided on the movies.

“It’s not so bad going to the movies by yourself.” She said as she held up various shirts and pants to her body to see which ones looked the best. She settled on a black shirt that was see-through and had a ruffled collar with some skinny jeans. For a girl her age many would say she was on the heavy side but she wore it well. She could stand to run in the gym a little, but it wasn’t anything sloppy looking. She was 5’7 with pecan colored skin. Her long brown hair was nice and full and most of the time she wore it in a curly afro. Many guys loved her smile which made her look so nice an innocent, which she truly was NOT.

She hopped in the shower and got dressed and tried to decided what theatre she was going to go too. Bayfair was out and so was Jacklondon and Hilltop so Baystreet it is. Driving down Alice towards the movies Talia thought about all the times she called people to do things with her and how nobody ever really returned the favor for her. It was like she was the one always thinking about others and trying to make them a part of her life and here she was the one always hurting. 

“I am so sick of this shit fareal. I mean I am always calling Vera and Kasey to do stuff and they always wanna start acting all new when that chick Tammy comes in the picture. All they do is talk about her or hang at her house. They always seem to forget about me when she calls and I for one am tired of it. Let one of them call me .From now on I’m gonna make some new friends and then let them see how they like it.”

After Talia parked her car she began gathering her things and making her way to the line to purchase her ticket. When she got up to purchase her ticket she heard someone calling her name. When she turned around she saw Kenyon standing there looking fine as ever.

“Damn girl you lookin real right” Kenyon said looking at her like he wanted to lick her all up

“Kenyon I haven’t seen you in so long where you been hiding?”

“I’ve been here and there you know mostly working and finishing up these couple of classes I’m taking over at Chabot what about you girl. I mean you gotta be doin something look like that.”

“Well I have just been doin the same I mean since I got back from school I haven’t had much time for anything other than working you know. But lets move out the way of this line because if this lady gives me one more stank eye I’m gonna have to get wit her about something.”

“Aight girl chill it aint gotta be all like that we can go grab somethin to eat or whateva are you here with anyone?”

“Nope I’m by myself and you?”

"Yea ma I am so lets go over to PF Changs and lets catch up."

As they walk over to PF Changs Kenyon thinks back to the first time he ever me Talia when she was in the 9th grade. She was fine as hell then and seeing her today brought back all the old memories.