Just Cant Help it #2 The Choice I Made (Part 3 )

 Continue from just cant help it part 1,2,3

 I got in the truck sitting next to Chris going through his phone as he nodded his head to the song that was playing. I notice out the Conner of my eye Steven kelp looking at me. But I dint say nothing, really wasn't Trina mess up the good mood everybody was in so I kelp it cool. We arrived at David and busters. It was a lot of people there you could smell the aroma of fried food that was being served. It was a line at the door. But I dint see no one I knew personally. We made it in the inside. Chris had bought my first drink. He knew I wasn't a drinker but I all ready knew the tricks he had up his sleeve. We walked up to the power card center to get a game card. The line was long. I was feeling alone for moments since rob them all knew people up there including Chris. They had me standing in line, but I wasn't complaining. My phone start to ring it was T calling me. " wassup "." chilling lol"." why you laughing!?"." lol because I see yo Lil short buff as!"." Ooh and you dint come speak Ooh okay!”.” shut up I'm on my way now bye". T said hanging up the phone.

Before i knew it Terrence was on the side of me. " Look at my baby" t said whispering. " lol i no right a Nigga look good huh"." you all ways looking good jay this isn't nothing new"." awe thank you, what brought you out here?"." I'm her with some friends it's recee birthday"." who that?"." this chick that likes me lol"." Ooh go head I see you lol"." but naww how you and Chris been? I see y'all walk In looking good together"." Where actually good I have to say I'm happy". I said smiling as the two girls In front of us turned around. " Terrance Ooh my gosh it's you. I knew it was I was just scared to turn around to see"." dang laylay you got thick as fuck, but a Nigga haven't seen you In a min what's been up?"." nothing taking care my son working just having a girl night out with my bitches". She said laughing. " So who is this t?"“ Ooh this my bestfriend Jordan. . And Jordan this laylay". " Nice to meet you laylay"." nice to meet you to and your cute boy you got a gf?" before i could answer that question Chris was walking up behind me and wrapped his arm around my neck and kissed me of my cheek.

 " naww i don't have a gf"." Ohh y'all..."." yeah let me just save time lol"." lol Ooh okay gone head then boy i knew something you just to cute"." ayaa what that suppose to mean?!". Rob, javon, and T snapped back at laylay at the same time. " lol Ooh i was just saying he's really pretty like female type pretty. Look at his eyebrows all arched perfect hair cut and he have a high standard of fashion"." dang girl you can tell all that by just looking at a guy?". Javon ask." i mean yeah some times lol"." Ooh okay koo so what you think of me?". " Ooh you cute". Lay friend said out the blue. " Girl he wasn't talking to you he was talking to me.., but any ways your cute lol"." Biiitch don't play with me up I'n here! Lol". " Ooh guys this is bria my bestfriend". We all spoke as we moved up finally making it to the card place. I bought a 75$ game card as well with everyone else. " Let's play basketball first, So i can show y'all my skills I'ma beast out there!".bria said as she lead us to the basketball game. I really wasn't a Hooper but i dint mind playing. " Come on Jordan i want to play you first". Bria said " you show ion want to hurt your feelings bria because ion believe In losing".           

" Well today you will". She said as she swiped her card through the machine. She had a good jump shop but it was no way i was losing to a girl. Beat her 15 to 10. That drink chris bought me was getting to me. The buzz was kicking In. And it felt good. It was a beautiful night. We walked to the car. Javon walked up to me and put his arms around me. " Yo jay you think you can let bria and laylay stay over tonight?"." lol yeah javon just wash or clean up what every y'all mess up understood?"." you got is boss". He said laughing as he walks away. i turned around, rob was handing chris the keys to his truck as the walked up to me. He was a little on the other side he was wasted. chris unlocked the car. Me rob and chris got I'n. I guess javon , Steven and deon was riding with Ol girl nem. So we left and headed home. Deon had text me. Telling me there almost home so hurry up. I looked over to chris. He looked back and smiled. I turned back to rob he was sleep. " i see you and javon been getting alone well bae?"." yeah he's cool people i like him , i really thought he wasn't gone like me"." why you say that?"." because your other cousin don't like me because she think I'm the reason your gay"." well you are i mean you my first boyfriend i kind of dint want things to get to far.....". I started to feel a Lil down as he talked but i just waited to he finished.." I wanted to see how it felt to be with the same sex and you was it for me jay. I mean look wise you cute as fuck! You got a body. Your smart, you play football. Dude your the number 1 QB and I'm with you. I feel lucky". I started to turn red in the face, as he was finishing up.  Couldn’t do nothing but smile.

      We arrived at the house they all were waiting in the front yard talking. Javon And Bria was playing fighting. I stepped out the car as chris walked around helping rob get out. " Finally you lovebirds make it! A Nigga gotta piss and shit " Steven said grabbing the key running to the door unlocking it. They all approached the door Laughing and talking. " Yo bae lock the doors to rob car"." Where the keys?"." there In the truck and where you want me to put him?"." Put him in my room". I said as I rand to the car chris said something but I dint hear him clear enough to understand. I walked into the house locking the front door. I heard a lot of stumping so I knocked on deon door. " aya y'all keep it down just a little please ion want the Neighbors complaining"." okay sorry Jordan we will keep it down daddy" laylay said with the prettiest smile that made me smile back." don't be smiling at me like that Jordan before I tell Yo man"." tell his man what?". Chris said walking up behind me opening the door wider. " Ooh , boy I tell you. You be popping up at the right moments... Y'all just to cute". Laylay said leaning on javon. " awe, thank you lay.. Welp , you kids have fun". I said closing the door. Turning to chris which he was giving me a steel face look. " bae why you put rob In your room? I thought we was getting it In tonight I have to leave tomorrow". Chris said." lol bae chill we taking the masters bedroom. With all the candles and we can dim the light why'll my momma slow jam cd plays In the background as we relax in her jacuzzi tub". I said moving closer to him kissing him on the lips." Ooh, I see I like the sound of that, you gone let me put my baby's In you baby". Chris said smiling looking down at me. " lol boy hush and go get something to wear to bed"." we can go to bed naked bae"." Umm not in my parents bed it would take me days to wash her confer". I said giggling." yeah you right because Nigga you get wet as fuck"." lol hush you like it though! ". I said walking pass him into my room.

Rob was on the bed gone, snoring and every thing. I pulled his shoes off as chris grabbed me and his clothes and walked to my mom room. I placed rob shoes by the door and pulled the cover back placing it on top of him. I walked to the window shutting it and closing the curtains. Walking toward the door cutting the light off. I took another look at rob before I shut the door. I shut the door and walked to my mom room shutting the door as well as locking it. I heard my mom cd playing the first song I new by heart [ask of you by raphael saadiq] I heard Chris voice sounding so good singing the first verse of the song walking up to me. The light reflected off the shininess of the oil he had rubbed all over his masculine body, which made him, look like the brightest shooting star out there. I walked closer to Chris as he told me to come here. He turned me around kissing me on my neck as he removed my necklace and pulling my shirt off. I started to pull my pants down, but Chris grabbed my hand and whispered In my ear. " mhmmhm move them hands".

 He said kissing on my back. He pulled my belt off unbuckling my pants. I felt his big warn muscular hands moved down my spine as I bent over removing my pants. " Damn bae I like you in briefs that ass look Phenomenal ". Chris said stepping back as the song changed to [donell jones do you wanna] I turned around face him from a distance throwing my pants on the chair. Walking over to the light dimming it. Chris watched my every moved licking his lips. I walked back over to him grabbing his hand, palm to palm. I leaned up on my tippy toes and kissed him. The warmness of his chest made my heart speed up as he put is finger under my chan lifting my head up high sticking his tongue in my mouth. His kiss was so lustful. He moved his hands down to my hips. " Damn bae... I swear you the only person get my heart racing like this...". He said smiling. " I love you ". Chris said looking me in the eyes. " I love you to bae". He giggled as he rand his fingers through my hair." Come on let's get in the tub it's all hot now". I walked toward the door opening it. The smell of vanilla open my lungs up from the burning candle. That was lite going around the tub.

The light was off but it was bright enough to see. I turned around to chris smiling as he pulled my undergarment off. Walking up to the tub slowly stepping over the lite candles. I sat back facing Chris as he rubbed on my chest kissing me on my shoulder. I leaned my head back on the towel as chris grabbed the sponge soaking my body with it. My eyes closed slowly enjoying ever motion of his hand moving up and down my abs. As [Touch by Mike ant] started to play. Chris whispered in my ear telling me to turn around. I moved through the warm water to the other side. I licked my lips staring Chris in the eyes. The reflection of the burning candles sparkled in his eyes. He smiled at me as he starts to hip roll to the song. He dropped the towel he had rapped around him. Letting his man hood swing freely which turned me on. He slowly stepped in the tub leaning over kissing me. He grabbed me as he fell back in the water sitting me on top of him. My dick pressed against his as our chest meet as well as our tongues. [Fortunate by Maxwell] began to play as I kissed on chris chest twisting his nipples with my hands . His dick started to stand tall. I kissed down to his lower belly.

 Placing his warm dick in my mouth, which made him jump a Lil. I stared to suck slow and jack him off at the same time. His moaning grows as I got faster. He tasted so sweet. He started to move up and down pushing his dick father down my throat, which made me gag a little, but I dint stop. I rubbed his chest as I started to deep throat him. " Fuck bae that shit feel good" he rubbed my back as he kissed me on my head. " iiiii... Bae fuck I'm bout to cum". I kissed on his stomach as his load of cum shot up hitting me on my chest and my chin. I washed it off with the water as Chris stood up pulling me up as well. He kissed me biting my lips. " You did good for your first time, " he said smiling with a Lil giggle. He laid me down on my back moving the candles. Kissing my legs, licking down to my manhood placing it in his mouth. The warmness of his mouth felt so good. I moaned grabbing his head. " mhmhum bae you mines tonight" chris said pushing my hand away pushing my legs back as he starts to eat me out.

That left me speechless from the feeling of his wet fat tongue. My heart starts to race as if it was gone pop out my chest. " mmmmmmmm " I moaned as my toes starts to curl up.  Chris starts to lick up to my chest then bit down on my nipple sticking his finger in me slowly finger fucking me. I wanted to moan but I couldn't. He reached over the tub grabbing a condom And some lube. I watched him as he placed the condom on his dick as he lubed me up. " I'Ma take it slow okay bae". I nodded my head as he start to push inside of me. I rapped my feet round him grinding my teeth fighting the pain. I moaned as he pushed him self all the way in. Landing on my chest. Sucking on my neck as he began to grind in my. He pulled my legs up leaning over me going deeper which made me grab on to him. My moaning grows louder so he slowed down. He placed my feet on his shoulder and kissed me. " Rap your arms around me". I did as I was told. Chris picked me up leaning me on the wall. He started off slow.

 As my moaning grows so did the power of every pump. Which was making me weak. I leaned back on the wall gasping for air. Trying to control my moaning as I began to nut all over his chest " you like that shit huh Nigga ... Take that dick" . " Iiiii Chris,  mmmmmm  wait.. Bae". " mhmhum I'm bout to cum bae". He start to fuck me faster before he pulled his dick out which made us both let out a loud moan. " Damn , bae that's what I'm talking about fuck I love you jay". Chris said as he put me down. I fell straight to my back taking a deep breath. " you alright bae?"." yeah , tired now " I said laughing . " Ooh , good I must put it down good then lol" . " Shut up lol". Chris pulled the plug out letting the water out. Walking down cutting the shower on. " Come bae ". Chris said. I slowly got up grabbing the edge of the tub for support. I walked over to where chris was standing. I stood there watching him try to adjust the showerhead. " Move I got it chris" I said giggling. " ayaa . Nobody told y'all to have some difficult as showers". I stepped out the shower once I set it to warm. " Ladies first" I said smiling. " Your such a gentlemen ". Chris said smiling back. We showered up the finally relaxed in the bed. Usually I dint sleep under chris , but that night I cuddled under him listing to his soft snoring which never bothered me. I turned around putting my back towards him. He moved in closer to me placing his arm under my head cuffing me and kissing me on my forehead.

 " Yo chris ". . Somebody was knocking on the door. I opened my eyes looking at the clock [ 9:45]. They continued to knock. " Jordan and chrisy rise and shine my lovebirds ". It was a girl voice this time. " Here I come". I tapped chris on his chest waking him up as I got out of bed. I walked over to the door unlocking it. " Morning Bitchessss " deon said as he rand in the room as well as javon , Steven , rob , laylay and bria. " How was y'all night my to cute little pumpkins?" laylay ask. " Our night was fun" I said winking. " I bet it was" deon said smiling. " Bae come here". It was chris calling me over. " Pass me my boxers". " wuhhhh.. You naked under there Lil chrisy?". I reached over the chair handing chris his boxers. " Girl Lil!? Ain't nun Lil about this one". Chris said directly to bria. " What Jordan you here yo man mhm he a Lil cocky something ". Bria said. " I no he is. That's why i love him". I said leaning on chris as he pulled me closer to the bed. " Yo jay it's aight if I make me some to eat? A Nigga hungry then a bitch!"." lol yeah rob.. Son you was gone last night you drunk a Lil to much"." I no man, a Nigga just haven't had that much fun in a min. Ever since I became a dad I stop partying "." Them the choices you have to make". I said as rob and the rest walked out the room.

" You no I was thinking about that bae"." thinking about what?"." kids"." KIDS?! Who having kids?"." You.. Ima put em in your belly ". Chris said smiling at me rubbing my stomach. " Ooh lol good luck with that.. , but no kids right now.. I'm not ready to be a dad" " lol , I now but I want two though bae when ever the time come. We can adopted or we can do the little sperm thing with a woman of our choice". " If we do that I'ma ask Ashley to do it"." Why Ashley bae she ghetto" chris said laughing. " lol , shut up that don't mean nothing.. But she's pretty and smart and she's mix like us"." Ooh , yeah you right well when the time come you can ask!". Chris said kissing me getting out the bed. We both walked to the bathroom to brush our teeth and wash up then headed down stairs. Rob had cooked breakfast for everyone. " Y'all food over their" rob said as we turned the Conner. Everybody was setting at the table eating, and talking. I grabbed my food walking into the din behind Chris. I sat my food down and began to eat. " Bae we need to talk". Chris said. " Can we eat first?". He grabbed my hand and lowered my fork from my mouth. And steel faced me." I'm serious". I leaned back turning my head to him. " wassup ?". " The family wants to meet you next week". " Okay". " Okay? Jay did you hear me?"." yes.. Chris I herd you bae.. Look I'm ready I think it's time anyways".  I said grasping his hand. " aight, koo I thought you was gone be tripping". " Why would I trip bae?.. It's your family soon to be mines". I said smiling. " That’s why I love you". Chris said kissing me. " You love me for a lot of reasons.. Now can I eat?"." sure, eat intell you pop".

I ate as I watched [meet the browns] chris was on the side of me talking to his grandparents about us. I was hoping she wouldn't ask for me. So I rushed and finish eating and walked out the din. Everybody was still at the table. They we're playing cards. " Food was good rob". " Thanks bro, ayaa you and chris wanna play?". " naww , gotta help him pack". " Ooh , we leaving today ?!". Javon ask. " Yeah, chris got practices tomorrow". I said as I washed my plate off placing it on the rack. "  chris walked behind me placing his hands on my shoulder massaging them. " Can you wash mines baby". He said looking at his plate. I grabbed it and finished washing up. We headed up stairs to my room. " I hate you have to leave "." I know bae I hate I have to go to.. , But you no I'm tryna make it pro so I can rack in this doe for us". " Great, more stuff I'ma have to deal with...". I said " What do you mean by that!?". Chris said lifting his eyebrow. " Chris really! .. You think every thing gone be all-good when you make it pro... Look at shit now!"." If I want every thing to go good then it's gone be good! Stop worrying about stuff so much that's your problem jay "." Umm that's not my problem.. And I have to worry because you don't! .. You think every thing is picture perfect and that's were your wrong and chris.. ". " Jay.. I don't wanna hear it!"." chris..." ." JAY!! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT! OKAY I GOT THIS!". Chris said grabbing me. " Trust me okay bae that's all I ask?". . . " Okay jay?"." Okay Chris just this shit stressful mane "." what's stressful jay? You just not gone let this go huh!?!"." No I'm not Chris.. You don't understand this is our lives chris.. You have big goals and I do to. . "." Jay I told you this what I dreamed of." And you also told me you had other ways to make money! You don't care about going pro!? Now look that's all you want.."." I have a family to support and I have people who look up to me Jordan. . I know I said a lot but bae look where I'm at. . I got top notch colleges calling me to play for them". " You're right.. You do that support your family and the people who look up to you.. It's okay for you to make me choice between you and my future but when I do it. You have family to support??!! .. You full of it man". " Jordan don't do this okay.. We talked about this right?.. And don't put it all on me you talking about going pro in football Nigga ! What's the difference? Huh Nigga ! Not shit! You all ways make me feel as I'm Trina just push away from you.. Or some.. My momma told me living this life style wasn't gone be easy so I'm Trina make the best of it with yo as! Jay I've turned down a lot of stuff for you but.. I can't turn down my goals for you jay and I'm sorry".

Chris said slamming his stuff in his suitcase. " I never ask you to turn anything down for me! When we was at Andre house that night I told you I dint want this to happen and what you tell me.. It want.. That was a lie I can see. . Chris I sacrificed so much for you and you no it! And I never told you I wanted to go pro! I talked about it! It wasn't my intentions to go pro.. My intentions was to be with you.. But I can see your goals are more important so I want stop you from reaching them". By this time tears were starting to fall from my eyes. I walked over to my dresser and pulled out the envelope that had all my football recommendation in. I never told Chris I turned them all down to move to Atlanta with him .I walked over to him pushing the thick envelop to his chest " Look for your self!". I said turning around walking pass javon who was standing in the doorway. I walked to my mom room jumped in her bed. I pulled the pillow over my head. I over hear Chris in javon in the room talking.

[" What was all that about? Why jay crying?". Javon ask." Man ion even no bro . . He upset about some stuff that I said in the pass and now I'm looking at things different"." what you say in the pass?"." I wasn't gone go pro because I wanted to be with him, but I now I can do both, but he idk man I've sacrificed so much for dude and I can’t let this go javon cuh I'm close as fuck to my dreams ". " So you lied to him? And bro real shit that’s not gone be easy at all Nigga ! You gay and out in the NBA .. No deal cousin.. Not tryna down yo future. And if you love somebody you sacrifice things am I right? And shit both of y'all is my dude. . Your good chris at ball, but Jordan Nigga son number one QB in the nation ... His future is now. In every football highlight there talking about him. . So truthful dude going through the most for you"." man shut up! You don't no what your talking about bruh.. We both sacrificing shit in this bitch! I don't no why the fuck he mad and he bout to piss me off with that shit!. . I love that Nigga with all my heart! Javon like damn man I no this shit not gone be easy, but I don't wanna look at it like that so I beat around it because I don't want to lose him. But how I no he not gone leave me javon . . He got scouts coming to him.. Eating out the palm of his hands.. Look at this thick as envelope bro!?". I rolled over in the bed drying my tears with my shirt.

I got up out the bed and stood by the door still listing. " What's in the envelope?"." I don't no Nigga I dint open it"." So how you no it's letters from the scouts!". " Nigga biggest day it say recommendation TOP football scouts and colleges "." Did he give it you?"." Yeah, but I'm not gone open it! Why so I can look stupid and watch my relationship fad away.. More Yes I hate he play ball! I hate he's a dude period but I can't help it javon"." You love him right?"." To fucking much man.. Jay my world bro..". I heard Chris say he's voice was getting a little shaky. " Christiano.... Open the fuck package dude! If you love him you'll open it"." No man I can't bro... I don't want to see that shit I no what it is.."." fine I'ma open it !". I heard javon rip the envelope open.

 " Auburn, TCU, Oregon, Stanford Ohio State, Oklahoma, Wisconsin LSU, Boise State, Alabama Nevada, Arkansas, Oklahoma State, Michigan State, Mississippi State, Virginia Tech, Florida State Missouri, Texas A&M, Nebraska UCF, South Carolina, Maryland Tulsa, North Carolina State......." " My point looks at all them damn colleges that want him and where that leaves me? Javon so why wouldn't I follow my dreams bro be real?"." Shut up let me finish!.. You no what he said to all of them right?"." what ?". " Just NO he really must care about yo dumb as! Because biggest day he turned then all down! " Whatever!". " Nigga this not a joke Chris! Read this shit!" I walked up closer to my room door. I seen chris reading the paper.

 Javon turned to me and walked up to me closing the door. "  I hope y'all work it out.. Bro y'all niggas complicated.. For real". I stood by the door. Chris looked up at me and looked back down at the papers. " So what's this?". I walked in the room closing the door. " To show you football was never my intentions. You was Chris.."." You really did that to be with me?". " I did it to save our relationship. I love you Chris. I understand things gone get difficult but you all ways told me we could get through it together". Chris walked up to me grabbing my hand. " I love you to jay and yes we can I'm sorry bae.."." just don't let it happen again, but your up for this ?"." up for what?"." being the first openly gay NBA player?”. I said hugging him around his neck"." Yeah, if I go through with it.. Just promise me we want fight like this no more. . I don't like getting mad at you " ." promise.. And what did you mean when you said you hate I'ma dude?"." lol Ooh , that I don't know. I was speaking out of anger / love. . You no how I get when i want to cry but I don't "." You made me cry.."." I can tell.. Sorry for that to bae."." it's koo , so you packed?"." yeah". I helped chris take this bags down to his car. He spoke to everybody before we left out the house. " I guess this my last time seeing you drive down here"." yup, yup, yup.."." Ima miss you"." I'ma miss you to bae". Chris said putting his stuff in the car. Javon started the car. [July by drake]  started to play. " I like that song". I said. " Yeah me to " chris said pulling me to him as he leaned on the car. " I got good news bae"." Ima transfer colleges I'ma come to school down here so we can we closer". I smiled once I here'd transfer. " ayaa Me to I like it down here in Houston bro y'all so country and cute no homo doe " javon said giggling. " It's okay to take that turn bro.. I can put you down with some niggas I no". Chris said laughing. " Naw , I'll leave that to y'all I'm good with the ladies "." Gone get going bae I'll see you soon". I kissed Chris before he got in the car. He blow the horn as we pulled of . . . I walked in the house up to my room. I notice my phone blinking it was a text from chris.

[Can’t wait for you to meet the family. I'm planning on spending the rest of my life with you bae... Check under your pillow. I want you to have the bracelet my great grandpa gave me. It's the last thing I have to remind me of him and I want you to have it. I love you Jordan, bae you my everything muah]