sO stROnq dOnT knO hOw... (Love Can be tOrn dOwn)

I dropped all that baggage let go of that habbit the pain you can have it cuz now im content wit me... im lovin this skin and i got a good maan feels like the begining:

 "now im content wit me" Doin 125 on the west holLywOod fRee way i finished what was my third chRonic bLunt iHad been chiefin all the way here I traded that frown in brought me a brand new smile im wearing it proudly cuz "now im content wit me"
 
I pulled up 2 (eden) a hOT ass club in holly wood... as my range rover came to a stop it hit me... every word brandy sung on this song related 2me... 2night i was 25 and i had came such a long way i had every thing i said i would...

I had let go of all the pain everything and every one that hurt me i was in such a better place i was so strong i couldnt see how my self love could be torn down... I was happier then i'd ever been i went from being a dead broke ass kid living wit my mother surviving off a county check 2 having a career im a registered nurse money was nothing to me... i had my house my car the cloths jewelery and every other material possession i wanted and it felt damn good.

Walking threw the back door 2the club i can here destinys child so good: "i know you hate it, but im doin so so so so so so good good good good good good good" hahaha lauqhin 2myself i make a slight grin and inside im glowin cuz i am doin so good... the club was packed to the maxx i mean niggas and b***hes wall to wall i had the club set up so nice i was proud of myself i was doin my 25th up real bigg, the club was all qlass 3stories but from where i was standing no one could see me Walking into my secluded v.i.p. Section i saw my better half.
 
he was the icing on my cake my man makes me feel so special he's thugged out, but he's my man devin was 6'4 225 muscular darkskin complexion with a fresh fade swagg threw the roof you could tell he was straight out of L.a., but his mind set was complex I stood @ 6'1 200 pounds caramel complexion with a curly mohawk with sick designs on both sides ppl always said we looked so good 2gether i thought the same thing But we were from two different walks of life he was born and raised in the hood me on the other hand i'd seen the hood a few times, but nothing major.
 
Walkin up behind devin i kissed him on his neck instantly i wanted 2make love in this club the smell of ed hardy cologne on him drove me insane he turnd around pulled me onto his lapp and passionately kissed me b4 letting the words ilove you escape his lipps... iknow you do i love you too isaid Un-doing his louis vuitton belt, with so much intensity it was hard 4me 2take it off, that plus the kuSh had me kinda sluggish so he un-did the belt 4mE
 
i stuck my hand inside his black lable pants and i could see he was ready 4me that anaconda was unleashed and i was even more turned on... i pulled his pants down 2his waist and dropped 2my knee's kissing his lips, his neck, 2his cheSt, all the way 2his d***k head then i started my up and down motion on all of his 10 inches mMm i moaned as he pushed my head further down on his d***k comin up i sucked his balls while jackin him off it drove him crazy he stuck 2fingers in my ass smacked each cheek licked his fingers and told me 2stand up lifting my shirt over my head he kissed me so deeply pushed me on the black leather couch and threw my leggs in the air and started eating my ass like it was his desert it never felt so good icould see everyone, but they couldnt see me.


I could see my cake being rolled into the middle of the club.. So i knew it was time 2get out there i stopped devin he got up smacked my ass and qot back dressed I went and threw on my black lable out fit wit my purple and black Lv shoeS on i had my audemars watch on and my fatt ass qold rope CHAIN with diamonds on the name plate around my neck, you couldnt tell me nothing


Rick ross` here i am played through the speakers so crisp the lights came on and everyone cleared the walk way devin and i came out his eyes were rollin in the light cus he was off that ex walkin up 2the stage... i hear get the f***k down right now my first thought is 2run out the secret entrance in the back, but i cant see devin that Quick he was gone and now i recognized the voices came from the police it apeared to me that we were being raided' I got a text from a wierd number it read: devins in the front in cuffs face down

Smh... i rAn out the back entrance without being seen i hopPED into my range and sped off fortunately for me they were only in the front i turned out the back lot and hit the free way 2my right Calling our lawyer im woundering what this is all about? I hit devins boy tray and let him kno wassup he said dont go home they'll probly go there next which i knew So i called OUR neighbor mia she told me my house was being raided as we spoke, i wasnt trippin cus my shyt was clean and leggit i had nothing 2REALLY worry about.

In the back of my mind i was GETTING NERVOUS, I checked into the luxe hotel in hollywood soon as i hit the bed my phone rang it was devins lawyer he said devin was being held on a 5million dollars bail and that his charges were money laundering, packaging and shipping narcotics with the intent 2sale, also possession of a fire arm Instantly i got emotional cus of all his charges and the time he could face... iknew he was a hood nigga, but he kept all that away from home so i never knew to much Now im stuck waiting for his call, ICHECKED THE MESSAGES ON MY HOUSE PHONE, NO SOONER THEN I HUNG UP MY PHONE RANG

 Ring... ring... ring... Hello? The caller hung up It was a un known caller They called back twice more i sent both calls 2voice mail, my phone went off letting me kno i had a voice message A song was playin someone was singing along all they kept sayin was "thats my nigga willing 2fight get it right i ride or die 4my baby" i know the games niggas play so i figured it was one of devins hoes so i made a mental note 2answer every private call from now on and AFTER I MADE sure deviN GOT RELEASED i would make sure he got out my house

(You will always be a special part of me)
i was surprised 2hear this song cominq from my phone cus it was devins ringtone maybe some had his phone?

HellO? I answered...
Hey baby...
Wassup? Devin

I never called him, by his first name or said wassup unless it was a problem so he asked where was i? I ignored him and said where are you? He said he was in L.A. off 1st im on my way i said and hung up grabbin my keys i checked out the hotel and about 45 minutes later i pulled up TO 1st i text him 2come out i had the music up loud as f***k so he wouldnt try 2talk at all he hopped in kissed my cheek and b4 he could close the door i sped off he looked @me and i just ignored his whole presence That was the longest 3hour drive of my life
 
now back @home in nevada soon as i pulled up i noticed that i had no front door and my house was f***ked up i cried BECAUSE they had cut up my 5,000 dollar leather couches UP, AND knocked over my tables everything i could think of was turnt up i was hurt, but i wasnt really one to just be trippin LIKE THAT, i just left him there and backed out the driveway so fast my tire went bald b4 icould even hit the free way, I pulled IN to the shopping center accros the street from my home called tripple A &&& went into jack in the box

while i waited 4them i thought about what i was gonna do? I knew i was leaving him for sure now i was gonna sell that house and trade my range in for a lex, i would probly move back 2cali... i took a sip of my strawberry banana smoothie and shooke my head The tow truck company rang my phone saying they were here i went out side and had him tow my car back acCrOss the street 2my house. when i walked in the house i heard moanin i figured devin was inside watching porn for sum reason he loved porn and whenever i was madd @him he had 2 relieve stress
 

i ran up stairs 2 turn what i thought was a porno off as i walked up the stairs i seen devin and 2 other men he was f***king one while the other was f***king him all @the same time i couldnt believe my eyeS... Quietly i tip toed down the stepps, but i tripped on the runner and i hurd devin yell who the f***k is that? He ran into our matser bedroom i figured he was getting one of the many guns we had in our safe inside our closet i ran into the garage got the lighter fluid i made a trail from the garage all the way 2the bottom of the stair case as i was doin that devin was comin down wit the 40-glocc i hid on the side of the wall and soon as he hit the last step i threw lighter fluid on him and a match it was crayz how the fire ignited so Quick and so bigg it burnt the hairs on my arms ofF devins eyes got bigg and he dropped the gun


i jumped out the way as devin tried 2jump on me so the fire could catch on 2me tOo I ran toward the front door i looked back one last time before putting lighter fluid everywhere i could, if he got out alive he'd be a lucky burnt bastard him, and them nasty ass hoes of his up stairs i locked the front door and set the porch on fire... i ran and did the same to my range i hopped inside his escalade that was on side walk put in jay-Z song cry turned the beat up and sped off never looking back...

hopefully i would hear about him and them on the news i would get a fat ass insurance check for his death, my ranqe, my house, and everything in it Lol, that home owners insurance shit sure did come in handy

 i called my sister and told her 2keep track of the news and i was on my way back 2cali..