Just Can't help it #2 the choice i made (part 2)

                       Senior year -continue from Just can't help it. Part 1,2,3

      " was good rob "." chilling on you're fb lol"." bro why you dint log me out bitch!"." dint feel like it bro you got a lot of damn friends Ol friendly as Nigga!"." bitch don't hate because ion got you as a friend!"." you don't I'm bout to add my self and Ima list you as my Lil bro that's koo?"." yeah". I said as i grabbed a vitamin water and a apple. I stood by the computer to see if  he was going through my messages or any thing.  Chris walked down stairs with his shirt off.  I notice he got his chest covered with tattoos. He whispered In my ear and told me to step out side with him. So i did. " wassup ?"." i miss you bae". Before i could respond he had his tongue down my throat. Then he bit me on my bottom lip. " i miss you to Chris I'm glad you came and why you dint tell me you was bring somebody!"." bae i dint even know. When i was packing he was like he was coming and i wasn't gone tell my Lil cousin no."." Ooh it's okay i was just asking."." i know it's koo enough talking drop to yo knees lol I'm joking baby". I pushed him away from me." don't play with me!"." I'm not playing with you yet Lil sexy"." lol shut up , so nasty"." you like it doe!". He said as he began to kiss me again. " chris stop i need to take a shower i smell like burnt grass!" i said giggling As i opened the door. i walked to the stairs trying to go up but chris kelp pulling my pants down." stop Chris ".i said laughing " nope take them off or I'ma keep doing it !". I took off running before he could grab me. But he grabbed me and picked me up and literally threw me on the bed and got on top of me. " i see you been working out tall buff as!" i said as i bit his nipple." ii shit that hurt Ooh you want to play!". Chris was the aggressive type when it came to playing. " No! no! No! I quite " I screamed as he bit down on my neck. I moved around Intel i got out the position he had me in. And walked to my closet to find me something to shower. " naww bae all you need is some briefs!". Chris said. I laughed In my head i guess he thought he was getting some tonight, but i had a trick up my sleeve just to see where our relationship stand with out sex. It was just a personal thing. I grabbed my clothes and walked to the bathroom plugging my iPod stereo up and letting Chris brown FAME album play. I cut the shower on warm and got in as [up 2 you] start playing. I showered Intel the whole CD played through then i got out and brushed my teeth. I was standing there looking sexy as fuck in my briefs.

            I smiled at my self in the mirror as I oiled my body down and brushed my hair. Waves were on point I smelled good and I was looking good. I cut off my iPod and walked out the bathroom into my room. Chris was on the floor doing push ups. I put my dirty clothes in my dirty clothesbasket that was on the other side of my TV. I sat on the bed watching Chris. " Hope you taking a shower when you done Lil sweaty self". He dint say nothing he just looked at me, and turned back facing the floor and continued counting. " Well excuse me!". I said getting up standing over him. He stopped and rolled to his back. " sit down baby"." No sweat and oil don't mix". I said giggling. " Ooh they gone mix to day bring yo ass here". He said as he pulled me down. " See was that hard" he said smiling." naw but i know what is doe" i said laughing. He tried to pull my briefs down, but i wouldn't let him. " Stop bae take you shower first!". I said grabbing his hand tight. " Ooh so you getting strong now?"." haha getting? Nigga I've been strong". I said as i pint his hands behind his head. " you think you doing something bae!?". Before a knew it he had me on my back pint to the ground." know what sexy red". He said before he kissed me. His cousin bust through the door. " Ooh my bad jay how you work y'all complicated as shower" javon said. " i got it bae". Chris said getting up adjusting his dick that was about to poke out his gym shorts. " Come on bro you flashing a Nigga in shit ion want to see that shit". Javon said i giggled a little bit as i got up from the floor.

       I walked down stairs to see what deon and rob where doing but rob was laid out on the sofa and deon was playing saints row with his online friends and rob cousin was on the computer. I walked over to him being nosy. He dent notice i was behind him when i see him adding me as a friend. " Ooh you want to be friends now?". He jumped and turned around." bro don't ever walk up on a black man and why the fuck you don't have on no clothes!"." bitch because it's my house you lucky i got on briefs !". I looked at the computer to see what his name was. " Steven" i said giggling. " it nothing funny!"." who said it was!"." well why you laughing!"." because i can Steven !". I said smiling. " Whatever you faggit!"." let me be ! Bet this faggit pull more hoes then you wack as!"." Nigga please jay you not fucking with me. I'll pull any bitch you talk to at the school"." ayaa do you..... And I don’t talk to bitches i talk to female bruh and please you couldn't pull nun i talk to boiii". I said as I slapping him up side the head." i bet i can show me who you go with!". I laughed then deon looked over and laughed as well. " naww Steven ion think you can pull who he talking to!". Deon said from across the room. " Show me and watch me"." i turned to deon." show him jay". Deon said smiling. " lol okay. . Click on my profile. And scroll down intell you see who I'm in a relationship with". " Bro! You lying! Fuck NOO he ain't even gay that's a fake profile because i no him!". I bust out laughing. " Really! That's a fake profile? And you no him!?"." yeah i no him he play ball and i no damn well he ain't gay he don't even look gay!". I couldn't help it but laugh and walk away." why you leaving jay what you just made an ass out of your self showing me a fake profile of some Nigga you dream about being with you bitch!"." lol naww hold on." i screamed chris name and told him to come down stairs. I walked back and sat in the chair that was up against the wall. Chris came down stairs. " wassup bae". " i wanted you to meet my homeboy Steven!".

       Steven turned around speechless." what cat got your tongue" i said laughing. " Steven long time no see!". Chris said looking straight at him. " w-wassup chrisy!"." it was getting kind of awkward. The room got quite. I start laughing again. " Awkward!". I said to break the silence. Chris grabbed me by the hand and pulled me by the stairs." how you no him bae?"." i really don't that rob cousin why?"." lol he don't like you!"." why you say that?". " long story bae I'll tell you the whole thing when we lay down”.” okay". Steven was watching me and chris as we walked back. Chris gave me a kiss before he walked up the stairs. " Soo Steven?"." So what?"." nothing!". . " wow that was kind of wired lol" deon said as he cut of the game waking rob up. Deon thought he was slick when he touched rob stomach rubbing him trying to get him up. " lol deon you a hot mess boy i tell you". I said walking to the kitchen to get something to drink. Steven walked In behind me. I stood by the sink as i drunk my Gatorade. " Ayaa jay umm umm how long y'all been going out?". He said nervously. " a year and some months why Steven ?". " Ooh umm just was asking". He said as he looked around the side of the kitchen watching to see if some one was coming. He walked up a Lil closer to me. " Did my name come up why'll y'all was dating?"." nope but!". " but what?". I sat my Gatorade bottle down and turned back facing him." i heard you don't like me!?!". He dint say nothing. " you can speak!"." okay look jay i dint no you. Shit i dint even no you knew my cousin intell today but ummm."." umm what don't start and don't finish!?"." damn man look I'm not gay or nothing but i was just doing it for the he'll of it. I was Trina talk to Chris over Facebook. That's how i no so much about you. Because he all ways talked about you when we talked and i hated it but i see why!"." lol i could've figured that out the way you was coming at me In the locker room!. Welp I'm bout to go entertain my man so good night!". I said with a smile as i walked out the kitchen.

        " yo rob you staying?"." yeah I'ma chill with deon tonight and play the game and smoke a Lil!". I looked at deon and shook my head." lol deon don't get hurt. . I heard a lot about that". I said winking. Rob dint catch on to what i was saying but deon did. " lol if it get that far" he said winking back. I walked up stairs to my room. Chris was just getting out the shower and javon was making him self-comfortable on the floor. I got I'n bed and cut my tv on and laid down. Booty call was on so i sat back and start watching it. As chris put on his wave cap in got In bed. " i hope y'all niggas ain't you no what tonight".javon said. " lol naw that would be rude we not you have no worries". I replied back. We all just relaxed and watched the movie Intel it went off. Javon had fell asleep so Chris had cut the tv on vh1 soul and just listened to music as we laid there talking about the whole thing that went on with Steven In him. It wasn't nothing to worry about so i dint. Chris phone start to ring it was his bestfriend Phee. I just laid with my ear to his chest listing to the vibration of his deep voice move through my ear. That made me laughs every time he got loud on the phone. But after a while i got tired so i laid on my Pillow. He was still on the phone so i dint want to bother him. I finally dozed off but it wasn't for long. Chris was kissing on my neck an holding me by the waist. He whispered I'm my ear." bae he sleep". I turned around facing him." i know we should be to". I whispered back smiling." lol bae come on please I'm begging you do it for your future husband". He said smiling. I smiled hard i was on the edge of giving in , but i had to hold my ground." baby no not today"." Bae why not? I miss you i know you miss me let's get it in"."lol no chris and i mean it bae"." what if i die to night?" he said laughing ." lol shut up and you not baby i got you tomorrow!"." okay lets go to sleep". He pulled the covers over his head and turned around. " lol really chris?"." lol what ? Man bae i miss yo as i wanna make love to you. You haven't let a Nigga fuck and what 1 month now lol!"." lol it haven't been a month!"." lol today make it a month"." boy be quite I'm going to sleep". " I'ma be quite but if you wake up to pain I'ma tell you the same thing". He said laughing. I turned around facing the wall. He turned facing the back of my head and put his hands around me and pulled me In to his chest." i love you jay"." i love you to nite bae".

       The next morning i woken by the ringing of my phone. It was a text message from my brother telling me he’ll be making it back soon stay out of trouble. I notice chris wasn't In the room. Jovon was still on the floor sleep. I slowly stepped over him, and walked down stairs. I still dint see him. I walked  by the back door and I heard Chris talking but his tone wasn't so pleasant. I pulled back the curtains a Lil just to peek through. Chris was holding a basketball In his hand why'll Steven was just standing there. I couldn't really understand what they where talking about because chris start bouncing the ball. I pulled the door open a little to listen. "Chris dude you no i like you ! Why you playing game with me i no you digging me bro I'm not tripping about you and jay ion really care for dude so shied i want tell if you want!". I wanted to open the door and say what was on my mind at that point but i held it I'n and just kelp listing. " lol Steven bro you funny dude! Look you cool people but why would i hoe my self like that! Leave jay to be with you? no disrespect but I'm good with my dude what i have with him ! Ha we will never have Nigga! So stop coming at me with that bull shit!"." Nigga what bull shit! I'm coming at you real ! That's just how i feel about you. When you was mad at him you wasn't saying nun of this shit you talking now!"." tell me what the fuck i was saying when i was mad i want to hear this!". Chris looked angry. I was still deciding should i just open the door or should i just wait. " chris really dude! Why you blocking B! Okay that time i called you and ask you what you was doing and you was like you was pissed off at Jordan then you said some of the shit he do you don't approve of you just don't talk to him about it!". Chris looked Steven straight I'n the face and walked up closer to him." bitch don't ever lie on me Lil Nigga just because ion want yo dog as you gone tell lies on a Nigga! Steven bro you not my type ion see nun I'n you and i damn show ain't tell you no bull shit like that! Jordan and me talk about every thing! Must got me confused with one of them other niggas you fucking around with!"." what other niggas chris you the only one dude and i told you that!"." STEVEN! Dude when do you stop! Son you tried to talk to my Lil Nigga Jerry ! Because you thought he was gay i was at his crib that day when he post that status [ I'm thinking about going gay! NBS!] and you sent him a message and he told you he don't fuck with dudes ! Yeah Nigga i no. . .  you one hoe as nigga! And i swear you try to fuck my relationship with jay up bitch I'll beat you as my damn self!! Keep fucking with me!". The look on chris face i knew he wasn't joking, and he was turning red. That's one thing i knew about chris he get fired up when you lie on him to his face." what ever man! I'm not scared of you and if i wanna fuck up y'all relationship watch me! And hit me i want you to!". I opened the door before things got out of hand. And just walked out and grabbed the ball from of the ground and act like i heard nothing. I sat on the swing that hung from the hook my dad built. I was waiting on somebody to speak but we all just sat there." well good morning!"." Morning bae". Chris replied. Steven just looked at me." Ooh you don't have to speak boi makes no different!". I snapped. "mhm". I was starting to get pissed because of the simple face this Nigga don't give a damn about me but I'm steady showing respect to this Nigga so i just let loose." So Steven ! Why you tryna interfere with me and chris relationship what you can't find your own!"." i don't give a fuck about y'all relationship and I'm not tryna interfere with y'all Lil gay as relationship!". I start laughing." gay as relationship!". I got up from the swing." bitch i was by the door the whole time you was tryna come on to my Nigga and you gone call some gay! And you have the nerve to say you don't care about me as I'n fuck Jordan ! And Nigga you I'n my house! Steven dude check it!. My voice got deeper." Ion take to much trash talk from hoe as niggas like you! Look please don't let this gayness fool you ! I'm nothing nice when it comes down to beating Lil fake as people like you up! Say one more thing and disrespect me again behind my back! And dude on every thing you gone have to back your shit up! I only been nice to yo wack as!"." Bitch ain't nobody scared of you ! Nigga okay i dint like you from the start Ol faggit as Nigga! Fuck you and yo Nigga! Ion no who the fuck you and  chris think y'all talking to crazy! I back my shit up!"." dude if you wasn't so young I'll smash yo punk as !". Chris said aggressively  !." bae i got this chill out. ." i said smiling. " bitch ion no why you smiling!"." you about to find out!". I seen rob standing by the door. He opened it and smacked Steven hard. " this why i don't bring you around my friends now! And Nigga I've been hearing all this gay shit about you! Nigga be real with you shit! Steven! That's why you staying with me now! Starting all that damn mess I'n bay city! Just like a fucking female! I should've let jay smash off on you as since you wanna be hard!". Rob said standing 2inches away from Steven face. Steven pushed rob back." Nigga fuck you! I ain't no Lil female and i don't start mess bitch! Nigga you think i care about coming around your friends nigga! Fuck out of here! And i want you to get that Ol faggit as Nigga ! Ion mind fighting no wanna be BITCH!". He looked directly at me. " fuck that bro enough talking". I charged Steven but chris grabbed me." naww let that Nigga go! He want it let him come get it!". Steven said stepping into the grass. " Steven bro I'm not fucking playing with you Nigga! Shut up!". Rob yelled out at him." bitch you shut up". " chris let me go man. He all ready said to much to me and you no i gotta bad temp I'm bout to show this Nigga! I'ma show him how a faggit get down!". I jerked away from chris walking into the grass. Taking my shirt off. Chris grabbed me again." bae chill out it ain't worth it!". " naw chris let him go it's time for Steven to learn a Lil some today." rob said laughing. Chris had let me go and stepped back some. " Let that bit. . . !". Steven yelled out. It was nothing else to say. . .  before he could get bitch out my fest connected with his jaw. And i stepped back to hold my ground. He came swinging but missed. I hit him with another jab to the ribs. So he tackled me to the ground landing on top of me. Kneeing me I'n my stomach. and bear hugged me. I start giving him straight ribs shots that was starting to make him curl up. I rolled him over getting on top of him punching him I'n his chest. I hoped up to my feet quick kicking him I'n stomach. " who a faggit now bitch get yo punk as up! ". I said with so much anger. " yo jay leave him alone he got enough". Rob said walking up to Steven. Before i knew it Steven had through the basketball straight to the back of my head. " Bitch" i screamed out turning around running up to him. I swung but rob held me down." jay. Jay . Jay. . Chill bro i got it i got it!". " naw fuck that i took it easy on his bitch as let's go my dude!". I start jerking away hard as i could trying to get to Steven. " yo chris come get this strong as Nigga!". Rob said giggling. " lol naw you said let him you Midas well let him go lol". Steven was just standing there red In the face. I was so mad. " bitch as Nigga throwing balls rob I'm not gown hit him!!"." man he not gone do shit let that Nigga hit me! Bro!". Steven said!." Steven shut up before you have to deal with me!". Rob had let me go i walked passed Steven throwing my shoulder into his trying to take his off. " Pussy". I said as i walked passed him. Deon and javon was standing next to chris. " Damn Jordan you a Lil crazy Lil some. Son got hands". Javon said chris was just smiling. That was the first time chris seen me fight. I walked I'n the house not saying anything straight to the bathroom up stairs cutting on the shower. Chris deon and javon walked I'n behind me. " lol my baby can fight how cute". Chris said walked up behind me grabbing me by my waist." move!". Can y'all step out please!. I said with an attitude. " give us a min!". Chris said as they walked out closing the door. " What’s wrong with you jay?"." nothing chris!"." so why you talking to me with a attitude! What i do to you"." what was that whole conversation about! Chris!"." bae look it's nothing with him I'm with you right! I told you he liked me and he don't  want me to be with you! And dude start putting words In my mouth!". I start taking my clothes off as he was talking. I reached over and cut my iPod stereo on. " jay i know you hear me talking to you!"." i hear you Nigga! You said it's nothing". I walked passed him grabbing some soap and shampoo. " Jordan!" he said as he grabbed my hand. " look bae i swear on every thing i wouldn't try to play you. Man that boy just ugh i don't know.

          If I upset you I'm sorry". " Chris I'm okay just want to take a shower". " your not okay!". " YES I AM!". I screamed out. " Don't scream at me jay!"." well stop telling me I'm not okay!. I said i was okay just leave it". Chris dint say nothing he just walked out In shut the door. I got In the shower washing the grass off me and out of my hair. I got out and dried off as i walked I'n my room. Chris was laying on the bed looking through my old year book. I turned and looked through my dresser for some boxers to put on and a polo v-neck. I cut the tv on and sat on the edge of my bed watching [grown up]. Chris got behind me wrapping his feet around my waist kissing me on my neck. " You mad at me" he said as he grabbed the remote out my hand placing it on the bed then grabbing my hand. " No why would i be mad?"." because i know how you react to stuff you all ways holding it I'n then you explode!" he said as he placed his Chen on my shoulder. " I'm okay chris"." you better be"." and if i wasn’t!?”.” then i was gone do this". He pulled me back and start sucking on my neck as he squeezed me. " eww your meat is on my back". I said laughing." I'm Trina put it some where else , but you want let me”.” you can all ways take it lol"."Ooh okay". He rolled me over and got on top of me and pint me to the bed." Now we can do this the easy way or the hard way up to you?"

         " ummm let's do it the hard way". I said smiling. " You think it's a joke huh!". Chris got off top of me and walked to the door and locked it. " Why you locking The door sir?"." did i tell you to speak shut up!"." Ooh I like it when you get aggressive" i smiled at him as he starts taking off his shirt. " I'm bout to show you how aggressive i can get". He pulled me closer to him while i was lying on my back. He leaned in, and starts kissing me. Then he moved down to sucking on my nipples and squeezing my waist. " I've been waiting so long for this i miss you all of you". He picked me up and put me on top of him. " Yo jay!". It was Deon at the door knocking. " What!"." Yo some man hear for you"." ugh give me a min". I turned to Chris he just fell back to the bed. " Damn jay hurry up. You see this!". He pointed down to his dick and winked at me. I put my clothed on and rushed down stairs to the door. I made show the house was clean the i opened the door. " Jordan". It was some white man dressed In a suit." yes sir?". I slowly said. " I'm Mr. McClelland Ramsey coach at Texas Southern can i have a word with you son?". I smiled as i let the man in. " what a nice place you stay with your parents? I know you don't have this type of money at your age well not yet". He said laughing. " Yes i do stay with both parents." i lied but i dint want him I'n my personal business. " But yeah i can't wait to be making my own money who don't". I said smiling. " Well son your getting there as long as your grades stay good throughout your senior school year and you maintain a GPA of 3.5 and up. I've been watching you play for a while Jordan, and me and your coach are really good friends so he's all ways bragging on and on about you when he comes to meetings. He see's big things for you in your future and he wanted me to talk to you". " I understand all that and I'll do my best to keep it up there and yeah he have been telling me things about you to.

           I guess he wants me to play for y'all am i right?". I just wanted to keep it short i knew the real reason why he was here To get me to play football for TSU. But that wasn't In my future planes. " I see where on the same track that's good. I want to give you some papers to look at to tell you a Lil more about TSU"." I know a lot about TSU my brother graduated from there last year"." who's your brother [Marcuse R.M Johnson] he rand track"." Marcuse did tell me he had a brother yes i remember Marcuse I've seen him run to. I tried to get him to play football but he said it [wasn't his cup of tea] " he said laughing. "Yeah it's not mines either!” I mumbled. " Did you say something?"."  Just was thinking out loud". " Well it was nice talking to you Mr. Johnson, and make sure you look over them papers give me a call when your free maybe i can get you a free day from school to bring you to TSU for a day". " Nice talking to you to coach and I'll like that whenever you can". I walked him to the door shaking his hands. Chris was coming down the stairs as i locked the door. I walked back to the living room and sat down. Chris came sat next to me picking up the thick stack of papers the man left for me. " TSU . . . Welcome's you ha"." bae don't start it's just opportunities for me"." what i dint say nun jay just was reading the papers". He threw the papers back on the table and start playing with the strings on his gym shorts. I placed the papers i was holding back on top and moved closer to Chris. " Bae it's not like me going to TSU gone mess things up with us."." i know that! It's just the fact I've been working my as off In Atlanta for us bae not me us!"." And it's still us Chris I'll be able to come see you and you still can come see me".

He just looked at me." jay you’re not getting the point. It's hard for me to come out here and i work. . Every time i come out here it's a 50/50 chance of me losing my job! It's just not easy on my hand me tryna make this money for both of us"." well just work for you chris! I told you i can take care my self"." but i told you i was Gone take care of you jay and I'ma man to my word!"." Chris I can’t promise you anything. I have to do what's best for me how do i no your not gone up and leave one day?! Huh". " I'm still here right! Haven't I've been coming to see you every week right! Who I came out to my family for? You right! Bae I'm doing this all for us to make us happy but you right do what's best for you!". Chris pushed me off him and walked up stairs. I hated the fact he made it feel like i had to choose between him and my future. I knew if I just sat there it wasn't gone make things better, but i knew Chris he's so use to things going his way. I got up off the couch and walked up behind Chris grabbing him by his gym shorts as he walked up the stairs. " baeee". . I said pulling him back with force. " What jay not I'n the mood!"." Not I'n the mood for what! Just because I'm thinking about my future!". I said with anger as we walked in the room shutting the door. " No! Jay you good man do what you please." he said low as he start packing his clothes. I sat on the bed i dint no should i speak because it seem like i was making things worse then what they were.

I walked over to Chris and stood I'n front of him. He dint say nothing neither did i. He grabbed my hands and just pulled me into his chest and whispered I'n my ear. " i just don't want to lose you". I just laid my head against his chest." i don't want to lose you. You just have to trust me bae. I trusted you to move to atl and go to school". " i no but we talked about this all ready i thought you was gone come stay with me but i mean i guess we can work it out"." we are gone work it out lol you think I'm bout to leave all his and let some other person enjoy what's mines ha son you wilding!". I said giggling and biting chris on his chest. " Stop Nigga! And help me pack since you threw every thing out my bag!"." don't get smart Lil man! Make me! ....."."Make you what!? . . What can you possibly do to hurt me?".i looked at him and smiled. " You wanna find out?"." he'll yeah!". I grabbed his nuts." say some i don't like and I’ll squeeze yo shit!"." some you don't like!". He said smiling. I squeezed them tighter." aight aight! Jay.. Jay.. Bro chill bae come on that shit hurt!". I let go and walked to my bed. Chris grabbed me and picked me up and held me against the wall." where you think you going my turn"." NOO!". I screamed out laughing at the same time. I fought him Intel he dropped me i feel to the floor but that dint stop him. He laid on top of me and bite me on my ear and pulled my hand behind my back and rolled me to my stomach, as he sat on my back. " So you want to play I’ma piss on yo back!”.” Chris i swear i would fuck you up and I'm not playing!"." Nigga i can careless if your not playing".  I dint no what chris was doing but i felt some warm laying on my back, but it wasn't no liquid." lol it's warm bae?"." what is that!? Ugh get off me!"." lol my dick! And nope Ooh that ass looking fat to!"." lol CHRIS get OFF me!". I screamed." Nigga who you hollering at!?"." lol nobody”.” So shut up and give me what you promise lol !"."lol shut up but no bae let me go your hurting me"." that's what I'm Trina do. . .  damn jay bae come on". He said kissing me on my back and rolling off me lying on his back.

 I looked at him and smiled and took my shirt off and rolled on top of him. I looked him I'n his eyes and smiled once again as i kissed him holding his hands down. He stuck his tongue out. So i bite it and kissed him again. He grabbed my waist as i started to suck on his neck. I gave him a hickey as he was squeezing my ass. " Jay"." yeah"." lol you don't think it's wired to be built the way you are?"."huh? What do you mean?"." bae like seriously dude have you looked at your ass?"." some times why?"." you got ass for a dude!"." i know that shut up i work my legs out a lot because i run duh, and it runs in the family i guess it's just there what can i do about it lol"." nothing i like it, and the sound it make when I'm hitting that thang!"." shut up" i said as i punched him In his chest." get you another one Nigga!". I hit him again with a Lil more force." damn Nigga that one kind of hurt!". It was a knock on the door. It was Chris cousin telling me my dad was down stairs and he wanted to talk to me. I jumped up and walked out my room door. Deon and rob was standing there talking so i walked passed them. I saw my dad sitting in the living room. " Yes sir?" i said standing on the stairs. " Come here!". I looked at him crazy. But i dint want to disrespect him so i did what i was told!. I walked up to him." So let me make sure that you understood me when i said you bet not have a boyfriend!"." i understood you but that don't mean i have to do what you say so let me make my self clear!".

He looked at me like he wanted to hit me but he dint. He gave me a angry discussed look. " Don’t you for get I'm still your dad! And as long as I'm here you will not be with another boy you understand me boy!?"." yes sir". He looked at me and smile when i said yes sir. I let him have his moment." So where on the same page son?”. I smiled before i replied. " No where not dad, and who are to say who i can't date! Did we all ready have this conversation dude! And i don't date boys! I got a man! And he's upstairs rather you like it or not you no longer intimidate me sir!” I snapped back with aggressiveness In my tone as i stepped back. " I wasn't that dumb to just stand that close to him. You got a what!?!". He said as he grabbed me by my shoulder as hard as he could. I jerked away." you heard me man!"“ JORDAN DON'T TEMP ME! Boy I'm not playing with you. This no longer a game! I let you have your fun get it together " he said as he held me by my throat against the wall. I seen out the corner of my eye my brother was walking in the house and Chris was coming down the stairs. But I dint say nun. Chris started to approach first but my brother stopped him. " Let my bro go!” Renzo said as he put his son Ryan down. My dad turned and looked at Renzo and turned back to me. " This conversation not over boy! Where you going!?". He said, as I was Trina move away from him. " No I think this conversation his over dad just leave we don't need any more problems In this house". Renzo said calmly. My dad had let me go and walked to the side. I walked over to where Renzo and Chris were standing holding my throat.  " You okay bae?". Chris asks. " Yeah he fine he don't need you checking up on him he a man just like you!". My dad said snapping at Chris. But Chris dint respond back out of respectfulness. " And for you Renzo you think you a man now huh?! That Lil bitch moved you pulled hitting me! Try it again I'll beat yo as like you a Nigga on the street! I respect y'all asses because y'all my kids! But I'm not gone take to much of this talking back shit! Understood!”

" Yes sir" me and Renzo said. Kaykay had walked In the house picking up Ryan walking to the room. Renzo walked behind her. " Renzo ! I'm not done talking!" my dad said." Well hurry up I'm grown i got places to be Nigga! Ion really feel like listing to yo as!". Renzo said walking off into this room closing his door. " welp i guess this talk is over" i said grabbing chris hand walking up stairs. " i guess you can let your self out once again". " You know what! Y'all niggas right y'all want to act like y'all don't need me fine." i dint respond i just walked up stairs. Deon had called me and told me to come here. I walked In his room. Him, rob and Steven was just siting there waiting on me to speak first. " Broo what happen?". Deon ask. " Same Ol shit pops mad because I'm gay blah blah , I'm sick of his shit yo like get the fuck man"." damn man at least you got the balls to stand up for your shit this Nigga Steven boy i tell you pussy for life!" rob said looking at Steven. " Shut up rob get off my case okay i just told you and deon i like niggas , okay !... Its whatever it's over leave it damn!"." lol somebody getting sensitive" chris said as everybody start laughing accept steven. " I'm not getting sensitive! Y'all niggas just need to leave me alone this shit not easy to deal with!"." Steven dude i no how you feel you see what I'm dealing with but if you gone cry about every thing boy!......  niggas gone break yo Lil ass down".

At that point i had realized why he was so confused about stuff. He was holding so much in, and dint no how to deal with it. I never thought me and him would connect but we did. Later that night Renzo had left again. We where all I'n the room getting ready. We decided to go to David & busters for the night just to relax from everything that was going on. I made sure everybody was looking fresh. I hated going places and it's that one person out the group looking a mess. They all walked down stairs as i was looking for my house keys. I had screamed out to tell deon to make sure the back doors were locked. Javon had walked In the room. " Damn jay you can dress for a gay boy. . Well I'll be lying a lot of gay dudes have a since of fashion". Javon said. I just giggled a little and smiled as i grabbed my keys from behind my bed. " Thank you javon and you dress well for a straight boy". I said laughing. " Ooh you got jokes that's wassup. But naw man at first i thought it was gone be wired being around you and my cousin but you pretty cool jay and plus you make chris happy i swear i ain't never seen this Nigga this joyful whatever y'all be doing you must be doing it well". He said laughing as we walked out my room door down the stairs. "What y'all come down the stairs laughing about?". Chris asked. " Nothing i was just telling him he makes you happy and I'm happy y'all together". Javon said as we walked out the door. I turned around locking it as well as fighting the key to come out. " Ol weak as couldn't get the key out the door". Deon said pulling the key out with no hesitation. " lol for get you and that door ! Damn it!"