Russian Roulette Pt 1

I told my self "fuck it". You only live once, I deserve to get what I want and right now that was somethin my girl couldnt give me. Some tough male lovin. I needed to feel what i gave out, and that was dominance. I wanted a man to pull my dreads while hittin this ass real good. I felt a little ashamed about my actions, mostly because I didnt want my son growing up doing any bull shit like this

I walked into the Adult book store and headed straight pass the books to the back room. Just as Rob intructed me to. I seen him back there ass naked with a towel around his waste.

"You aint no punk after all, I see" he threw me a unlabled bottle.

"If I say Im gone do somethin Ima do it" I said with a little authority in my voice. But that was just our way of flirting with each other with out seemin like sissys.   "Strip to yo boxers and join us in the last room to the right" Rob pointed down the hall.  "Bet" i told him and began to strip. It was no longer then 3 minutes when I was walking into the last room on the right with the unlabled bottle. 

A  couch laid against one wall while a mattress laid in front of it. The couch held 3 dudes. Hood niggas to be exact. (like my self) and Rob was leaned over suckin the shit out of the one in the middle's dick. The shit turned me on and caused my dick to rise immediatley. Just one glance at me you would think i would beat a nigga ass for even callin me gay. I definitely didnt act gay. In my household I am the man and that was that. But not tonight. I wanted to get fucked and dominated. I wanted to feel the same way I made my girl feelwhen I be deep strokin that pussy from the back late night after the kids go to sleep. Alot of nights I fucked her, I was wishin some body could do me like I did her.

"Is this mike?" one of the men said.   Rob turned back wiping the pre cum mixed with saliva off the corners off his mouth.

"My bad fellas, Yea this my boy Mike, Mike these are some friends of mine."

I did a slight wave unsure of what I got my self into.

"Mike, its time you let loose, Try some new shit and live life to the fullest. Im about to introduce you to a whole new level of pleasure. Pleasure that you cant even recieve from just regular heterosexual sex."

I listened to Rob but I thought about my son. He was two, and looked like a spitting image of me. He don't know right from wrong but I felt like I was letting him down. I couldnt help but feel like he knew what I was out here doing. Im paranoid.

Rob continued "I wont keep nothing from you, And I wont make you do anything you dont want to do. In your hands you have something we call poppers. Its a mild drug that relaxes you"

I looked down at the bottle. "Alright, what we doing?" I asked.

"Were playing Russian Roulette" he told me.

Did I hear this dude right? "Russian Roulette?" I asked. "You told me to get naked to play some Russian Roulette?" I was in disbelief.

"Its our own version of Russian Roulette. It gives you a rush and the pleasure you never experienced before" He walked up to me opening the bottle of powder. "Now before I explain this to you Ima need you to sit on this mattress and lean against the couch and relax, Like I said I wont do nothin to you if you dont want me to."